I've been worried. I've become conscious of the women in my family. These are bad thoughts, and I can't help it. However, the more I hold back the stronger it becomes.

Sleepless nights continue, exhausted, I visit the hospital and prescribed sleeping pills. And then I had an idea.

Sleeping pills...if I use them it just might be possible. I will satisfy myself by playing with them while they're sleeping.

Finally, I have the willpower. And now I've begun sneakily playing with mother, and sister everyday.